Runnin'

Another year has changed me. I'm running in search of who I am, before I am changed again...

How am I supposed to find her though? Where/When do I find myself.. is it in what I do? Do I actually know myself very well, but as with everything else I'm second guessing? Over Analyzing?

My old theory of waiting for someone to tell me who I am has so many holes in it, I could strain spaghetti through it.


Life swells and turns and sways like the sea.. who are we but simple people riding it out?
I don't like admitting that I am now different.. I really don't. I wish I was carefree, and simple, and easy to please.. but the truth is some days I feel so complicated, that I can't even figure out myself.. not to mention trying to sympathize with someone else who is trying to understand me.

I guess we just keep on. Trust God. Put it all out there day after day. And someday, somehow.. It all works out.. we find ourselves... we find those who love us... and we finish hard knowing we did our best.

- I have to keep believing that, believing IN that.. or else.. whats the point?




Honey I'm pleading
let's put away the sticks and stones
be human beings
I have the sense to be afraid to be a fool

You push me out again
You push me up against a wall
You told me once your body flowed
with milk and honey
but what happened to our boy
inside your tummy?
I have the sense to be afraid, to be a fool
but I'm on the fence
to make you stay or to be cruel

You perfume covered helpless louse,
look on the bright side
See, every time you laugh out loud
I'm crying inside
I have the sense to be afraid, to be the fool
Try commonsense. Make me believe
believe in you

I should have known you'd kick me hard
when I'm on the ground