3 months is a long time...

Its been crazy... I'm still in shock that he's gone.. Not to mention everything else.

I have been in 4 different countries since then, learned new languages, learned to paint, added over a hundred artists to my collection, moved home, left friends, made new ones, lost old ones,4 pointed a semester, got a new car, got a full time job.

Things are settling down..

I wish my heart was.

I'm still so restless.. There are so many things I miss, so many things I long for...

Although i think I can finally say that these scars have healed... but only through God...



I really am working so hard to make everybody proud, to live up to the second chance that I've been given by everyone.
And I really just wish Papa was here to see everything that's going on...

Mema is doing so well..shes coming on the train next month
Daddy weighs as much as he did in high school
Mama is working out 3 times a week and hasn't eaten a carb in 4 months...
Ash got her teaching job
Brennan is the best in his school just like always ;)
Chrissy and Mike are getting married in less than a month
I just had a full time job basically made for me and I'm paying for my own car

but there is still this shadow...
I think it is just impossible to lose that great of a person and not feel the effects forever.

I just miss him.. That's all there is...



Ive had this song stuck in my head for a while now...