Relaxation is the best :D

Christmas :D



I REALLY love my Dog, its kind of rediculous. Although the bow was NOT my idea... he'd never admit it, but my dad totally did it :D


My Elf outfit Rocked.



Im starting to think that maybe Ash and I should start a gingerbread house making company :D The Little lights on the roof are chocolate covered sun flower seeds :) We seriously spent about 5 hours making it. But it was SO much fun :D

Being home in Seattle is really so much more then I could have hoped for. Its 22 days until I leave, and instead of counting down, Ive been trying to figure out when we will ever all be together like this again.

I do miss everyone at home though... I really hoped Id be able to see everyone one more time before I left for Europe. My parents and I were planning on a way to get me back for the wedding. But, ultimately it was my decision. I didnt want to let everyone down again, and as strong as I have become in the last 6 months... well, I thought i was strong the last time too. :/ Ive grown leaps and bounds since I left Michigan last, but the next time I see you all, I promise you I'll be what you all need again.
In the mean time though, I am planning for what will be the most exciting adventure of my life to date. And to do so I have made some purchases :D


My Film Rebel Ti

My digital rebel XTI

My Fisheye lense that fits both.

And my telephoto lens that fits both.

I LOVE WORKING MY BUTT OFF!! I am so excited to take all this to Europe! And Im taking my cyberShot for snapshots and things that I dont want to lug all my camera equipment to.
Victoria and I got our Eurorail Passes and just need to plan out our excursions. (Im thinking that the ferry to ireland is a definate possibility. :D)

Ok I just made myself too stinking excited. and I need to go buy a camera bag that will fit all this stuff. :D :D :D

A night Out...

I am so rediculously joyful these days... things are hard. But I am filled with Love and hope :D







Thank you for this Jesse Edwards... my new favorite song.

WOAH! Some serious catching up to do...

Halloween, Date Nights, The Girls, and Engadgement Party :D








New Favorite :D


Im writing a paper, so for now ill just let the pics do the talking for now :D

I love this.. hahaha LOSTWICH!

Thanks sara!

To make a Sandwich -
Jack
1. Gather ingredients
2. Point gun at ingredients and shout “HOW DO I MAKE A SANDWICH OUT OF YOU?!?!?”
3. Breathe heavily through your nose as though you were about to hit ingredients
4. Give up and make the sandwich yourself, and eat it bitterly

Kate
1. Make separate sandwiches, one with peanut butter and one with jelly
2. Take a bite of the peanut butter sandwich, declaring it the best
3. Take a bite of the jelly sandwich, declaring it the best
4. Repeat steps 2 and 3 ad infinitum
5. Follow peanut butter or jelly sandwich into grave danger

Sawyer
1. Throw the jar of jelly at wall, sneering “I don’t need no sandwich”
2. Call the mascot on the jar of peanut butter lots of clever nicknames
3. Huff and puff and stomp around and grumble a lot
4. When no one’s looking, make perfect, even, symmetrical peanut butter and jelly sandwich and sit in a corner, enjoying every bite

Locke
1. Sit idly by, believing that the ingredients will find a way to make a sandwich out of themselves
2. Lose faith and make the sandwich anyway
3. Realize that you were the instrument by which the ingredients chose to make a sandwich after all
4. Run around the room and grab everyone’s knives, insisting that their sandwiches will do the same in time

Hurley
1. Make sandwich
2. Eat sandwich
3. Repeat steps 1 and 2 ad infinitum

Sayid
1. Procure 23 milligrams of uranium-20
2. Set hadron supercollider to eight megajoules
3. Program a sandwich-making macro using Cobol or Visual Basic
4. Act all tough-like

Desmond
1. Eat sandwich
2. Call the sandwich “brother”
3. Place peanut butter slice over jelly slice
4. Spread jelly on the other slice
5. Spread peanut butter on one slice
6. Take two slices of bread, a jar of peanut butter and a jar of jelly

Ben
1. Steal someone else’s sandwich
2. Claim you coerced them into making the sandwich for you all along
3. Say you’ll tell them everything if they make you another sandwich
4. Stare at them all creepy-like

Libby
1. Lay out plans for one of the most intricate, fascinating, and delicious sandwiches of all time
2. Just as you start making it, get shot

Its amazing, I feel almost human again...

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

Sing it out...

I'm on the run
I'm on the ropes this time
where is my song?
I've lost the song of my soul tonight

sing it out
sing it out
take what is left of me
and make it a melody

sing it out
sing out-loud
I can't the words to sing
you'd be my remedy

My song
My song
I'll sing with what's left of me

where is the sun?
feel like a ghost this time
where have you gone?
I need your breath in my lungs tonight

sing it out

I'm holding on
I'm holding on to you
My world is wrong
my world is a lie that's come true
and I fall in love with the ones that run me through
when all along all I need is you

sing it out

One more reason to hate you.

As if there werent enough..

I have mono.




ligheihgoiwhg

Counting up all the time...

Singing this, led by the Myriad... proabably the coolest thing thats happened in a while :D

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.


We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.

Stalemate.

Why is it that everytime something gets resolved something else gets harder?
My heart feels like a hollow room, i cant make sense of anything, everything that it says just bounces around, against the walls. I dont trust myself to try, but im too scared not too....
My heart and my mind are on two opposite sides of a paradime shift, and they have been for about a year...
but all the time there has been you, and I really wish I could say that that has made everything easier.

But it hurts so much more knowing that your heart has been hanging in the balence.

Tooooo buuusssyyy toooo blooooggggg.

Thats why they say pictures speak a thousand words i suppose :)

Well I made it through midterm week, and was rewarded with a sweet weekend in L.A where I sat by a pool in 80 degree weather, then layed in my gigantic bed and watched How I met Your Mother, and Dexter for an entire day....

Other than that it has been a lot of french, and a lot of art...but my Art Prof did tell me today that he wanted to put one of my pieces in his house... it kinda cracked me up.. but its better then the alternative of using Roys technique and pretending I was mentally challenged in order to pass (though dont get me wrong, I DID consider it)

Owl City concert is this weekend, I really cant wait, then the guyrad is the next day, and Im pretty excited. V and I did a nice job, and the girls seem pretty excited about the whole thing...

oh and its now only 3 months and 3 days till I leave for Heathrow...
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

*A strange fun mixture of Victorias Birthday and The Paint War :)*

NEW RELIENT K !!! (thanks Mav :D)

I never thought I'd be driving through the country just to drive with only music and the clothes that I woke up in.

I never thought I'd need all this time alone. It goes to show I had so much yet I had need for nothing but you, but you.

This is just therapy. Just call it what it is with a death grip on this life always transitioning. This is just therapy 'cause you won't take my calls and that makes God the only one who's left here listening to me.

Letting it all sink in, it's good to feel a sting now and again. I hope it's one less woeful thing there is to fight through.

Getting it all begin, fresh paper and a nice expensive pen. The past cannot subtract a thing from what I might do for you, unless that's what I let it do.

This is just therapy. Just call it what it is with a death grip on this life always transitioning. This is just therapy 'cause you won't take my calls and that makes God the only one who's left here listening.

Loneliness and solitude are two things not to get confused 'cause I spend my solitude with you.

Gather all the questions of the things I just can't get straight and I answer them the way I guess you do.

'cause this is my therapy, 'cause you're the only one that's listening to me.

This is my therapy, just call it what it is and what we were with a death grip on this life that's in transition. This is my therapy 'cause you won't hear me out and that makes God the only one who's left here listening.

This is my therapy. Just call it what it is with a death grip on this life always transitioning. This is just therapy 'cause you won't take my calls and that makes God the only one who's left here listening to me.

Post 200. "Please dont call it love."

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You were indifferent
I was young
We were both drinking fiction with greedy tongues
You were waiting for someone
Something to happen
Something irrational
Climbing the walls and falling in love

How do you find me, you my dove
Where my sun also rises sure enough
I was waiting for someone
Something to happen
Something ridiculous
Climbing the walls and falling
In what I now would call your glove

Please don’t call it love.

Screaming our screenplay, off the cuff
We were both stuck pretending our dreams were enough
I awoke in the morning wanting the day
I thought I could have you,
Miles away from falling in love
To find stalling sweet enough

Please don’t call it love

PhotoShoot by the Lovely Victoria, and Balboa Park :D

Sunshine Rainbow Sandwhich :D

Love these....








These girls are so great <3



Padres Game :D



*A little of my handiwork for the weekend :D