Queen of Bad Ideas

Bad Idea of tonight?
Watching "The Way we Were" at 130am...

Hubbell: You hold on and I don't know how. And I wish I did. Maybe you were born committed... I can't get negative enough. I can't get angry enough. And I can't get positive enough.

Katie: Why can't I have you?
Hubbell: Because you push too hard, every damn minute. There's no time to ever relax and enjoy living. Every things too serious to be so serious.
Katie: If I push too hard it's because I want things to be better, I want us to be better, I want you to be better. Sure I make waves you have I mean you have to. And I'll keep making them till your everything you should be and will be. You'll never find anyone as good for you as I am, to believe in you as much as I do or to love you as much.
Hubbell: I know that.
Katie: Well then why?
Hubbell: Do you think if I come back its going to be okay by magic? What's going to change? What's going to be different? We'll both be wrong, we'll both lose.
Katie: Couldn't we both win?

I ache to remember... all the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said.

Well.
Congrats Leslie. You survived yet another fall semester massive illness.
Good Grief.


- Now im so homesick I can hardly see straight.. and I'm almost as europsick.

mehh My level of apathy towards everything is as high as my level of nostalgia.. which just makes me nauseous.






Let. ME go BACK.

Yep

God is good. All the time.
Gotta keep remembering that. My stress level will go down.
*Breathe*


*Has a shock top*... couldnt hurt...

Truth.

Sometimes, Im really not sure what the truth even is.
I desperately wish I had someone that i could just go to for everything... but. Thats not how it happens.
Then on monday nights im stuck here thinking.
And coming to the conclusion that we all have to survive. Somehow.

Im not sure how I got here. But everything hurts, and yet nothing really feels that different.

I think I lost myself. Again.