I's gotz an obsession

And I cant help it.
I love listening to this as I'm praying that I wont run out of gas.
Eeek.

"I dont think thats the kind of swinger they meant."

Haha, oh how i miss Sophomore year sometimes.

...So Tired

I worked 24 hours in a 36 hour period of time.. Actually I still have 2.5 hours left. With a sinus infection. And my tummy hurts.


:(

My soul is so alive, but my heart is still so cold?

I doubt the name similarity is a coincidence..

http://www.dailylove.net/2010/06/62310.html

I LOVE THIS WITH MY ENTIRE SOUL!

Favorite Band and Long Lost Disney Movie?!?

Yes Please!

Its possible that I'm about to break.

To much stress, Idk if I can do this all on top of no sleep, flashbacks, and loneliness. At 3am it seems like way to much.

sleep?

Thanks V :D

Weekending :D

Everyone makes one mistake
One more time for old time's sake
One more time before the feeling fades
One that's born of memories
One more bruise you gave to me
One more test just how much can I take
You're not the one,
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one,
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit

Something never meant to be
Everything you meant to me
Wake me when this punishment is done
Those who try and get away
From the one who gets away
Someone's always someone else's one

You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit

Until the end of time
In another life
Until the day I die
Just save it up for one more try
Save it for the next goodbye

We go on again off again on again off
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like this
You're not the one
But you're the only one who can make me feel like shit

Thinking Positive

This week, on top of classes, work, and my internship, I have also put together my entire classes social work project. (Which is going to be huge and crazy)
And made:
White Cheddar Mac and Cheese
Pumpkin Bread
Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Muffins
Pumpkin Apple Butter
Shepherds Pie
Whole Wheat Pancakes
A double decker Butterless, eggless, milkless chocolate cake with Vanilla Greek Yogurt Frosting and raspberries.
:)

Not to shabby.

?

Could this possibly hurt more?


Maybe that should be my turning point? It can't get worse...

It comes and goes in waves.

"I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when i was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?"


You don't get what I miss, you never will. I hate this. I hate the separation and grief that is life. I thought someday you'd understand what I was feeling, but shit. Maybe I really am just alone in all this.
I don't get it.
Everything really does hurt after all.

Halloweekend Part Uno :D

Marylin!!!


Pumpkin Carving... the sad incident where my little guy lost his face :(
Sad Day.

Trying to empty my brain so I can sleep.

The problem with taking classes that I like is that I often can’t stop reflecting on them… And when I cant stop thinking I don’t sleep.. And this has been going on for 4 nights now.. So I ‘m going to have to try something else…

Psych 325 today was about existential therapy…

Some thoughts/notes.

“Meaning like pleasure, must be pursued obliquely. Finding meaning in life is a by product of commitment to a life spent creating, loving, working.”

“The will to find meaning is our primary striving”

“Life is not meaningful in itself, the individual must create and discover the meaning” – Victor Frankl

“He who has a ‘why’ to life for, can bear with almost any ‘how’” – Nietzsche

Heard this. Fell in love.

Well, while you were sitting in the back seat smokin a cigarrette you thought was gona be your last, I was fallin deep, deep in love with you...and I never told you till just now.

Let me go home.

And if we never meet in this life, Let me feel the lack.

The possibility of moving back has shattered me this week. Did I make the wrong decision in coming here at all? Oh, how different everything would have been...
I can't figure out if it would have been better or worse though...

Honestly it makes me sick to think about it all...

Maybe it just came up so that I could re-evaluate? But some days I miss my old life so terribly that I actually feel my heart breaking a little. What haven't I said would give for some of that back?

An is this God giving me a way? Or is this another challenge?
I pray for clarity, daily... because God knows I cant take anymore challenges right now...