I should be sleeping...

Or doing homework, or something more productive then this, but i cannot seem to help it. Im too tired to be awake, and too restless to sleep, I keep spending a rediculous amount of time trying to accomplish something that could label me as artsy rather than just plain lazy and sick of doing work. But its not working well when the only way I have to edit my pictures right now is paint...oh which reminds me, I need to post those awesome pictures of my destroyed computer, courtesy of HP!

Its a decent temperature tonight for once, im hoping that i manage to fall asleep before the stupid sprinklers come on at about 3:02...scares me everynight...

Sometimes I wonder if living day to day is actually a do-able thing for me, it seems as though the anxietys of tomorrow allways manage to sink into my today..

• I have a stupid amount of work to do for anatomy


• Anatomy doesnt really matter though, because im not nursing anymore


• I still have to pass


• Of course im going to pass


• heh, do your chemistry and think about it tomorrow

And so here I am. Im just turning on music, because im sick of listening to my own brain...

"No I dont want to battle from beginning to end, I dont want to cycle love or cycle revenge, I dont want to follow death and all of his friends" - Coldplay

Another night where I am convinced that music gives my soul the boost it needs to keep my heart going...
and yet I find that...

I miss those...

"Like the shore needs the sea...

and night needs the moon...

So I'd be lifeless and dark, if it wasnt for you...."

( I have a perfect picture for here...but paint...is the devil..and its just embarressing that Im fighting with a program that belongs in the land of dos and atari....UGH)

*Insert here awsome black and white picture of the sunset, with the colors inverted*

- looks kind of like a black hole...which is I guess what happens when you opposite the colors of the sunset twice..they get mad at you for not appreciating them..and end up looking down right evil...

well w.e it went with my upcoming song lyrics as seen aboove...but by my own rules, I cant put them on "unwritten song" until I finish that thought fully...and Im not anywhere close to finished with these thoughts....

sigh

Here we go..