How do I never see the lies? How do I never notice that you are never telling the truth?
Better question...how do you live with yourself? Well, i mean besides pretending that im a bitch, and pushing away all rational thoughts of good judgement. Besides running away from every account of responsibility in your life and moving on to something that doesnt take work.
I always held out hope for a you that was real, and better. I almost ruined myself, in order to see you become what I see in your eyes. Someone who doesnt want to become what he hates. But I realize now that you are just that.
Now I see that the only thing you think of is yourself. And I thank God that you only appreciated a part of me. Because you never fully captured what I am, and what Im capable of. Because this heart, that would love and care till the end of the earth... deserves SO much more than you.
Im not crying tonight, but i am sad.
Because I realized why you are so scared of being alone. Even for a week.
You cant stand who you are either.
God help me I tried.
At least I was always only one person. And right now that one person is so glad that she finally cant stand you.
You'll always be in my prayers. But i'll never regret walking away from you.
:/
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