Im sitting in a completely empty sterile room, with no one, having just booked myself a ride to and from the airport, to go to a city that I havent resided in for more than a week at a time, and where I have 1 friend my age. Im really excited to go home...its just different.
Im so tired.
Today was completely insane.
Its a strange thing coming back to an empty hall, with very little amount of things, and realizing that you aren't taking anyone with you. Its just another phase of life, where I get to start over... again.
So much happened here. 1st semester I would have killed to get 2 seconds alone. Now, in this hall with no one, I've never felt quite so lonely...
I love the people I met here, and im a completely different person than I was when I got here. But unfortunately i was scared when i got here...
and
Im still scared. I dont know what will be next I really dont. But I went and listened to the waves tonight and just prayed.. Its comforting..ya know? Listening to the roaring gracefulness of the waves paralleling the personality of God and all that...
God will provide. He always does...even when the pain feels completely unbearable, hes around...and will step in when my feeble human ways fail me.
So if God's with me, then why am I afraid again...
I do trust in you. I do. I just want my heart to stop being so frantic...
<3 id="SPELLING_ERROR_12" class="blsp-spelling-error">dont think its going to stop...
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