Im tired..

Im tired of this. I need people, and I just dont know who im supposed to go to anymore. I feel like everyone in my life has given up on me, and honestly, I have no idea what giving up on ANYONE feels like.
I want to go home. Its the thing that keeps making me cry more than anything. But honestly...I feel exactly like this song.

Oh, and I guess they'll say I've grown
I know more than I wanted to know
I've said more than I wanted to say


I'm headed home
Yea but I'm not so sure
That home is a place
You can still get to by train



So I'm looking out the window
And I'm drifting off to sleep
With my face pressed up against the pane
With the rhythm of my heart
And the ringing in my ears
It's the rhythm of the southbound train

Oh, well the wind starts to look like her hair
And the clouds in her bright blue eyes
As the sea and the shore fall and rise
Like her breast as she breathes by my side
And the moon is her lips as the sun
Is headed on down to the sea
Like her head as she lays down on me
Until we reach ocean side
Over and over I hear the same refrain
It's the rhythm of my heart
And my sleepy girl's breathing
It's the rhythm of my southbound train





Oh, I suppose they'll say I should've known
Or maybe I'm just feeling old
Like a lawyer with no one to blame

I'm headed home
Yeah but I'm not so sure
Home is a place that'll ever be the same

So we're picking up our things
And we head out in the cold
And your eyes are where you carry the pain
When I hear the whistle weeping
It's crying to the skying
It's the rhythm of the southbound train
It's the rhythm of my southbound train