If you care, please read this.

I dont know what to do anymore.
In the last month Ive:
Been in a psych ward.
Gave everyone one more chance.
Been kicked out of Chrissys wedding.
Been verbally acosted by pretty much everyone who i ever thought cared about me.
Been put on probation at work because of aforementioned hospitalization.
Had 2 nervous breakdowns.
Worked over 140 hours.
Aced every test or quiz ive taken.
Been in 7 different drs. appointments
Had Strep.
Passed out and hit my head hard enough to warrent "concussion" status
Been 2 3 new places.
Learned 2 new skills.
Learned 1 new language.
Slept through 4 classes.

And thats about it. But I seriously dont think I can do this anymore. I have no more strength. I have no "old friends" to run to, everyone has their own lives, or doesnt think im worthy of their time. Same with most of my "not on vacation" family. And I cant talk to anyone here or they will put me back in the hospital.
I cant explain what happened ok? I cant. I dont know anymore. It was a year ago, and all I know is that I was fine the first week of school. And then I stopped fighting, and things started falling apart. Ok? I talked to aaron for 45 minutes tonight and I sobbed uncontrolably the whole time. I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW ANYTHING HAPPENED.
All I know is I NEVER STOPPED, trying to make sure that EVERYONE was ok.

I WAS LIED TO. I'M SORRY.
Please stop hounding me.

I swear to God, no one except my grandparents and my aunt and uncle, have called me just to check on me, without another motive or judgement, since Ive moved here.

I cant do this alone anymore. I need help. I need people to care.
I feel like ive tried. But this is the only outlet I have. IF YOU'RE READING THIS I NEED YOU TO CALL, I NEED YOU TO TRY. Please.
I dont have any energy left.