Self-Concluded... with a little help from my "friends"

so I know my actions 2 months ago really sucked for all of you.. and i know i destroyed your lives and everything... but ive tried since then... however i realized today that it will NEVER matter.

What Ive said.
1) I pray for you always, and I hope things are going well for you.
Leslie

2) I wish the best for you I hope you always know that
Love you.
Leslie

3) I still pray for you all the time, I wish the best for you.
Love, Les

4) Maybe we have to go backwards to learn enough to go forward.

5)If you ever need anything, please know you can talk to me.

6) Im sorry that youve had to deal with all of this, I hope you have a great weekend.

Responses.
Well the main response was nothing at all... but there were a few words shared.

-Consider yourself out of my life and out of my wedding

-Im sorry but i cant chose you

-What do you want me to do les, all you do is complain to me

- Are you ok? Oh.. sorry (walks out the door)

- I dont know what your talking about.. I do not love you, but im sorry you felt that way.

-I'll be frank here: The impression given is as though not talking to Zack, or not having sex with anyone for a month now should absolve you of any guilt or need to make amends.

-There is a significant difference between people holding you accountable and people trying to hold you accountable. By your reactions, I have a very hard time believing that you're allowing it from anyone.

-I've heard about some of the things you've said to family members, and some friends. They've cut deeply, and have left the ones who love you most hurting greatly. Knowing that those relationships have not been dealt with, I can say with reluctant confidence that there are present issues, that are undoubtedly creating a break in your relationship with God. And I can reasonably believe from the fact that you've lashed out and alienated those who've tried to help, instead of facing the mistakes with humility and openness, that you have not taken a realistic look at the path you've traveled. Oswald Chambers says somewhere that if ever there is a feeling of disconnect between me and God, then there is some point at which I'm not obeying.

-As a friend and mentor, I cannot relegate myself to sympathizing, and what's said is now said, and I do believe that yes, Leslie. You do need to hear it.


Well I did,
heard you all loud and clear (or didnt hear from you at all.)


I going to try to go out with annie tonight...but honestly.
I think im done trying.

Im sorry Kels Lauren Sara and Hillary....
youve tried so hard..

itd be best if everyone just left me alone though...