Thursday, September 17, 2009

Im sorry..

I really am. I dont know how to explain to you what I did or why. And I dont want to justify it cause I know it was wrong.
I just wish...
that you would understand that I was at my wits end ok? I really was. And the only that I could think about, because of everything that I had gone through alone in the last year, was that I wanted him to walk back through the door.
Just one more time.

And Im sorry, a lot to myself, but more to everyone else. Im sorry that I gave in. I know that it was all a lie, and it was a game I never should have played.
But in my heart... after all of this..
He came back just one more time.
And for some reason I needed that.


You dont have to worry about it anymore ok? It was all a lie, and I know it, and my friend/ the person I have shared more with then anyone on this earth hates me. And doesnt care.
So you got what you wanted.
And Ive moved on.

So in this game. You win.
But you dont understand... and I will always be the only one who does.

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