Great Day, with a side of mournfull...

Mournful because my dream car is no longer being made =( Since Pontiac is gone now, the Solstice will no longer be made...
sigh
Guess I'll to spend my excess thousands of dollars I have lying around on something else....;)

It was hard to get up this morning too.. I mean its nice, cause I feel free...but as I explained to Chris and Felisha last night, it just feels so wrong. I am always working to help people, and right now it just feels like that wasnt good enough.Its just stupid, I stayed around for waaay longer than I should have because I kept being told "I need you, I cant explain it but please dont give up" But now seeing as how Im clearly "not needed," I feel like I got fired.
I guess thats how quickly and easily one can be disposed of. Makes me kind of scared for life and relationships in general.
However..I got breakfast with Felisha this morning, which was a terrific start to the day, and the weather is perfect right now, its sunny, but breezy and cool, perfect spring jacket weather..I love it.

Plus the encouragement I have recieved today has been amazing...
Last night Chris suggested some different things to jump into a life of my own, where i could self nurture and really get ahead. One of those things was to get some encouragement, so he had me talk to his R.A. Cameron is just such a terrific guy,he was the chaplan of Gospel Choir last semmester, who prayed over all of us and said "God i dont know who it is but someone here needs to feel your love, needs to know that you love them even though all of this is happening" I knew he was praying for me, I had to leave the chapel I was crying so hard. This time it took him all of 5 minutes, (without me saying anything) for him to realize the amount of pain i was in. He told me that I had accomplished so many things already in life, just from what he knew of my move, and my relationships with people here. He prayed over me, and my relationships with my family, and those I invest in. Idk, it just did wonders for me, Ive felt great all day. The weirdest thing, is that he told me I was beautiful and worth something...and that about killed me. He just looked at me and said it, now I know he said it to encourage me so its not that big of a deal...but at the same time that made it a bigger deal. Ive been in so many relationships and given so much, and been hurt so badly, and that was all I needed to hear, and a stranger told me this, and I felt moved right down to my core....

Then i dont know, even to the level of the only other person in life who has been hurt the same way by the same person, txted me today..and the words she had for me gave me hope I guess...
"Im doing really great Les, this is out of your and my control at this point, and can really only be prayed about."

Im really proud of her...


AND MY CLASS JUST GOT CANCELLED...YESSSSSSS... NO MORE SOCIOLOGY =)

Some recent strangeness...

Ive had great conversations with about 4 guys, looking for dates for Trisha, and they have all been SUPER NICE. I tried to pull a favor with this one guy from my small group and hes currently trying to rearrange his entire schedual to accomidate me. Aww, silly boys.

And Im currently trying to figure out why they heck EVERY ADVENTURE, that chris and felisha want to go on, has to include AN INSAINE AMOUNT OF WALKING! Ogm (oh golly me) lol alex... My calves are so sore from walking up that frickin hill last night, I swear it was like 65 degrees, straight up...to lauren and sara...if you remember driving up that hill to "makeout point" and having to put the E brake on and nearly falling and dying...yeah it was that same hill...

GRRRR. Pain...YAY! encouragement...

Plus I just learned that there are many more people who read this than I thought...thats nice too :)

Still getting more and more nervous/excited for friday...

Pray for the house...Someone is coming to see it today...we MIGHT be able to sell it.. AHHHH I hope so..

thanks everybody.
<3