WHY THE HECK?!?!?

LLBL Vincent (11:53:09 PM): im so tired
LLBL Vincent (11:53:17 PM): and so sick of this
rinom373 (11:55:38 PM): it's like he pushes you away, and then does what he can to pull you back in arms length
rinom373 (11:55:47 PM): i don't understand why
LLBL Vincent (11:55:53 PM): hes sadistic
LLBL Vincent (11:56:01 PM): or he really loves me
LLBL Vincent (11:56:09 PM): niether are nice
rinom373 (11:57:45 PM): yeah...
LLBL Vincent (11:57:55 PM): go to sleep silly
rinom373 (11:58:14 PM): it's just you constantly have to deal with all of it and make things work and put your guard up and take it down and i don't know
rinom373 (11:58:48 PM): it's really unfair
LLBL Vincent (11:58:56 PM): hence the exsaustion
LLBL Vincent (11:59:16 PM): HE DROPPED EVERYTHING SO THAT HE COULD PROVE HE CARED?
LLBL Vincent (11:59:22 PM): HE DIDNT GO TO A (f'ing) MOVIE
LLBL Vincent (11:59:22 PM): 1
LLBL Vincent (11:59:30 PM): AND HE MADE ME FEEL BAD ABOUT
LLBL Vincent (12:00:02 AM): How many times, how many (GD) dates did he ruin, how many years did i substitute my relationship with NORMAL FUNCTIONAL people for him
LLBL Vincent (12:00:05 AM): im sick of his (S)
LLBL Vincent (12:00:13 AM): im sick of it, i dont know what he wants from me
LLBL Vincent (12:00:54 AM): hes ruined me, and had all of me, and scarred me for life with pain i have to live with everyday
LLBL Vincent (12:01:14 AM): why wont he just frickin go away?
rinom373 (12:03:13 AM): i know i'm so sorry....
rinom373 (12:03:24 AM): it's like he's addicted to the nostalgia of your friendship
LLBL Vincent (12:03:26 AM): he doesnt even want to work for it anymore
LLBL Vincent (12:03:35 AM): he just thinks I'll be there
LLBL Vincent (12:03:45 AM): and the f'ing retarded part is IVE TRIED
LLBL Vincent (12:03:48 AM): IN EVERY ASPECT
LLBL Vincent (12:03:53 AM): EVEN NOW
LLBL Vincent (12:04:00 AM): and i still get treated like this