I want this. I do. But how am i supposed to know whats right anymore, im kind of terrible at making decisions. Most of me thinks that i should work to make this work. Then I think, Ive worked hard enough for 2 lifetimes, but maybe not for this...?
It makes so much sense. This is supposed to be the easiest decision in the world. Why am I so confused?
I do love you.
I do miss you.
I have missed you for a long time.
Am I that person anymore?
What happens when I see you for real?
You've made so much right for me, made me so happy...I want that back.
But so much has gone wrong. So very wrong.
I keep remembering that day I told you you I couldnt believe you were real. That was the last time we really talked. I want that back.
Ugh.
Im praying harder than im thinking. Im going to sleep on this for a while.
<3
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